Becca: Yeah, its like double dating.
(Notes to self:
1. Maybe when said child is taking "growth and body" ie: periods and pregnancy, its not the best time to bring up polyamory unless you are really prepared.
2. Remember, when she asks if the guy is going to come over and hang out-play games-meet the family...this is the same child who tried to set you up with the very young cashier, and wanted a step dad.
3. When you explain that the grandparents may be confused because he wears a wedding ring, you have now given her a problem to solve. The puppy now sees a shiny new bone, and is only temporarily distracted by the thought of being an only child soon.)
Yes I am ok...at the moment. We shall see how I fair when its time to draft the legal documents.
Its been an amazing rollercoaster ride since tues. when we had our Lynbrook high visit.
Reality - Leesville is a much better school than Lynbrook High for Dorothy, and offers her more courses including a Latin 1 -5honors with less academic pressure. They are high enough/good enough for private college placement, with out the pressure.
Lynbrook: 7 year long classes per semester plus grad project, SAT, ACT, etc Also schedule changes everyday.
Leesville: 8 semester classes per year- 4 each semester one of which can be SAT prep, grad project is part of daily schedule which is the same every day.
So less classes to keep track of each semester and no constant changing schedule, plus graduates with same classes and credits as here.
So now I have to find a lawyer, give her dad 50% legal/physical custody, pray he does the right thing, move her and all her belongings with pet....
Every emotion is floating through my body right now...have not slept much..but now that decisions made...feel better.
Prayers would be appriciated.
Friend's comment to previous post was regarding me being bitter...and I realized he was right I was feeling bitter...
I am so pissed I didn't even see the bitter component....but yeah I guess bitter...
though the most telling thing I realized today at lunch with a friend...I am releaved/happy/weight off that I no longer have to deal with his gf drama and drama drama...
actually while writing this I am really really glad that I no longer have to deal with his drama...lord knows lately I have had enough of my own.
Wow I is happy..hmmm...yep still happy ...and still pissed...hehe todays a good day.
1) Don't call me up and bitch about your best friend being disrespectful/snappy/atitude at you, I WAS THERE SAW THE WHOLE THING WITH MY OWN EYES, he was awesome and your acting like an ass. You are liucky he puts up with your crap.
2) Stop acting like a coke-head....you talk everyone else is just suppose to listen
3) Stop bitching about everybody else, take some f--- responsibilty, the world does not revolve around you and what others do to you...
4) stop being so self obsessed! when someone calls you as a friend to talk about their bad day, they just need a friend, maybe they dont yet again want to hear you bitch about your girlfriend or friends again...
5) maybe one of these days you could take responsibilty for the shit you do and say
6) If you insist a "friend" plays by your rules, that the friendship meets your rules, is designed to meet your needs, and does not represent or respect theirs....then play by your own rules you created.
7) heres a poly hint...if your just friends you dont get to be jelous/bitchy/or have veto power...because your just friends!
8) If you tell a friend to do something, and they do...you dont get to bitch or be jelous becuase they did and it went well!!
9) If you do any of the above during and after being warned its a problem, you are being disrespectful and an ass. you are not being a good friend. you need to self evaluate and knock off the drama.
10) I NEVER WANTED A SECONDARY RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU AND WOULD NEVER HAVE SAID YES TO ONE, WE ARE TOO MUCH ALIKE REMEMBER...RING A BELL...!
I WANTED A FRIEND I COULD PLAY/SCENE WITH. I TOLD YOU THAT/I WANTED FRIENDSHIP, THAT WAS WHAT MATTERED TO ME. YOU DID NOT TELL ME OR MAKE IT CLEAR THAT YOU DID NOT RESPECT ME AS A FRIEND.
CLEARLY YOU JUST WANTED A FUCK BUDDY AND SOMEONE WHO WOULD LOSEN UP YOUR GIRLFRIEND.
WELL YOU GOT WHAT YOU NEEDED ENJOY, GLAD I COULD HELP, NOW GO BITCH AT SOMEONE ELSE ITS WHAT YOU DO BEST AND TAKE ME OFF YOUR DAM CONTACTS LIST IDIOT!!!
Now on day 15 of the migrane, with two small breaks in between, determined to get her good grades back and caught up on assignments, getting over heartbreak and feeling so very sorry, trying to cleanup whole house after party while having migrane, still seeing double because of migrane, ok that its..."Migrane, its war, and your going down!"
I am so angry I have to release it before it eats me alive. so....I AM SCREAMING ON LJ, cause family is home and i cant scream here.
Not only does she decide to wait and not to tell those most important whose lives it will effect and possible change forever, but she tells others who then are compelled to not tell these people whom will be effected that they care about the truth.
SHE ROPES ME, THOSE I KNOW, AND AM IN RELATIONSHIPS WITH TO KEEP HER SECRET. WHILE US UNKNOWING- SHE DOESNT PLAN TO LET THOSE IN NEED KNOW TILL SHE DECIDES SHES READY. WE ARE SUPPOSE TO BE HER FRIENDS SUPPORTING HER, THERE FOR HER...
IF SHE IS WILLING TO LIE OR WITH HOLD SOMETHING THAT CHANGES OTHER PEOPLES LIVES DRASTICALLY,
WHAT WILL SHE NOT TELL ME?
WAS WHAT SHE TOLD ME A LIE?
Can I trust her at all?
Can she follow through on any of her promises?
Will she slip again and lie about more the next time?
What did she not tell me that I need to know?
Was anything real?
I feel like my heart has been ripped out, shredded, stomped, torn apart, then put back in...but the worse part...I LET HER DRAG PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT INTO THIS MADNESS, MY FRIENDS WHO NOW HAVE TO KEEP THE SECERT FROM THEIR FRIENDS.
I AM THE ONE WHO INTRODUCED HER, BROUGHT HER INTO THE GROUP, and NOW...though the lies are hers....i feel aweful.
A LIE BY OMISSION IS STILL A LIE, RIGHT?
TO ALL THOSE EFFECTED KNOW THIS....WITH ALL MY BEING I AM TRULY SORRY!!! FOR THE POSITION SHE PUT YOU IN, I AM TRULY SORRY!!! I DONT KNOW WHAT CAN BE DONE TO FIX THIS , MAYBE ITS TIME, MAYBE YOUR ALL OK, IF NOT, PLEASE KNOW I WILL TRY TO NOT LET THIS HAPPEN AGAIN!
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